Well my boy is three years old today!! It is so great to have him in my life. I am so blessed to be able to say I am his mama!! He is a great, sweet kid and I love watching him grow! But, there is a hard part for me, on each of my kids birthday's, because I was not there. I can't go back and remember the day my babies were born. I can't say what they looked like, felt like, sounded like. I guess this is just a normal part of adoption. There is so much more good than bad, and every thing is worth those precious babies. But I still hurt, from missing the birth of my children. It is also hard to think about his first day. When he was born, he was alone. Well he had his nurses, but there was not family there to hug him and tell him how cute he was and kiss him and touch him. I was not there to comfort him. He was just in that hospital nursery...when all the other babies were being taken to their mama's...he was just there....wish I could have been there and held him. I am so thankful that the Lord was there, making sure he was okay until we could get to him. I know that he is fine and doing great today, and praise God for that. But the mama part of me wishes I could have been there on that wonderful day that he was born. I think the more birthday's that go by the easier it will be. I am so glad that God chose me to be his mom. I am so blessed. I sure love my boy! Three years old today!! It is going by too fast.
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