"You said it!, Horton"

It has been 3 months today, since my little sprout went to heaven. What a hard three months it has been. And I am sure more are ahead. And although the world goes on, and plans are made...my heart is still back there. Back when I had two heart beats inside of me...mine and my precious baby's. I was close to her. I choose to say her, because in all my dreams (they are so many) it was a girl. A beautiful blue eyed, chubby cheeked girl with auburn hair that shimmered with red like it was in the sun. I don't know if that is what she would have looked like, or if it was a girl at all, in my dreams that is how she was and that is all I have. And although there was not a funeral, or a gathering of family to mourn the passing of a member, she still lived, and she still died. And as Horton says "A person's a person, NO MATTER HOW SMALL" I am a HUGE believer in the fact that life begins at conception. And those of you who have had a positive pregnancy test, you know that the love for that baby begins right then...not after it is born. We saw our little ones heart beating, and she even moved a little for us. She was there. I know it more than anyone, because she gave me the gift of feeling sick to my stomach all day long, and she made me need more sleep, and she gave me more joy than anyone could know. So losing her was more than just losing a baby, I lost a dream. My dream of carrying my baby, giving birth, hearing the first cry, nursing her and NEVER having to wait to be told she belongs to me. I know that God saw her as a person, and she is with Him right now and that I will meet her someday. This brings me peace. And I KNOW this, because Jeremiah 1 :5 says Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee. He formed her, he knew her and now he has her. I am grateful for her little life. But missing her today. Thinking about how she would be today, how we would be annoying everyone, for not finding out if it was a boy or girl. How I would be half way through my pregnancy and loving every moment. And although it may seem like a little thing, "A persons a person, no matter how small"