Why is Nana Sick?

My children are blessed to have 4 wonderful grandparents and FIVE...yes, FIVE Great Grandparents. Growing up, I LOVED having so many grandparents and now I LOVE seeing my kids build relationships with them.

We have had a hard time lately, learning that Nana (my grandmother) has cancer and is sick. The kids really did not know about it, but after visiting Nana in the hospital this last sunday, my Hannah has had Nana on her mind.

Kinda weird, to think that my kids GREAT grandma (Nana) is only two years older than their Grandma and Grandpa on my husbands side. Guess my side of the family all had their babies really young ;)

Anyway, after our visit to see Nana, Hannah has been asking some questions. In the van today she asked me some and I thought it was the sweetest little conversation!

H- "mama, why is Nana sick"

Me- "cause she has a bad germ in her lungs"

H-"what kind of bad germ?"

Me-"well the name of it is cancer"

H- "and the doctors are taking good care of her at my hospital? (Nana is in the hospital where Hannah was born, and she knows it as "her hospital")

Me- "yes they are working very hard to make Nana feel better"

H- " is Nana gonna be sick a yong time?"

Me- (feeling a little teary) " well it looks like she will be sick for awhile"

H- "maybe if Nana sneezes WHEALLY WHEALLY hard she can make the germ get out of her lungs"

Me-"that is a good idea, but I don't think it would work. It is a pretty mean germ"

H-"DOD can tell that mean germ to GET OUT!!!"

Me- "that is right baby! He sure can"

H- "I love my Nana."

Me- "I do too"

H-(after a long pause) "mama?"

Me- "yes?"

H-"what do yizards (lizards) eat?"

I was thankful for the change of subject. It was bitter sweet talking to my little girl about her Nana. I love her faith and her concern. I love that she KNOWS God can help her Nana. I love her tender heart, and curious mind, trying to figure out how to make her Nana better. I wish life were that simple. I wish my sweet Grandma was not sick, or hurting. For now, I will cherish everyday. Try and learn from my children and have faith and love, and realize that "Dod" is in control and can do anything.

Summer treats, little hands, and Hair!

This is just a post of a few things I have tried this summer. Some things that I have modified, or found that have worked for me.

I really liked the idea of the automatic soap dispensers. I have three little guys who have a hard time getting the soap pumped out of the pump kind. Especially since Ruthie potty trained, she just can't do it. I priced one at Bed Bath and Beyond at $20. But that was too much for me. So when I found the Lysol one at Walmart for $6 I went for it. The catch is that you have to buy "their" bottles of soap that are $2.60. The small bottles go fast with a family of five. SOOOOO I bought two bottles. When the first one ran out, I took it out, pried the top off and added my OWN cheaper liquid soap I bought in bulk! So I save and the dispenser was only $6! I am sure I could put sanitizer in the bottles too! This has made it so easy for the kids to wash their little hands after using the potty! I am happy with it!

I saw on a ad on TV about making the TRIX yogurt into frozen yogurt pops and wanted to give it a try. Thought the kids would enjoy it. Tried it, and it would work for older kids, but seemed a bit much for my little guys. SOOOO I just took our regular yogurt we normally eat and filled up our popsicle molds!

I cover it with foil and put in the popsicle sticks!

Into the freezer they went! They turned out great and are now a favorite! And I love that it is frozen yogurt!

Another favorite the kids love is Frozen Bananas. I break the banana in half, put in a popsicle stick, wrap it up and freeze! The kids call it "Banana Ice Cream" but mom knows it is just good wholesome healthy fruit!

On to HAIR!! I am having fun trying out new hair do's on Hannah's hair. We still have a little bit more time before Ruthie has enough hair to really work with. Hannah has started to want to have her hair down, but "not in my eyes mama". So when I saw these headbands a while back online I wanted to give it a try! So I got what I needed and surprised myself with some useable headbands in the end! They are made out of satin, and I like how delicate and fancy they look. Hannah picked the colors and she is wearing them all the time! Ruthie is too! So here are some pics!

YELLOW

WHITE

PURPLE

Hannah's Favorite PINK!

We are having a great summer and loving every moment of it together!

Four In Four...boy how things have changed!

This time of year has me thinking. I know this will fade as the years go by, but for now, it is still with me. If our little sprout had stayed with us, we would be throwing a first birthday party. I don't really feel *sad* about it. I miss what could have been, but this is how life is and God is in control. And His plan is always better than mine. The last few days as I have been thinking about the little one that is not here, it has caused me to think back . To take stock, and take in just what we have been through.

So many months of trying to have a baby! We had to wait...and wait...and wait...and wait... on the Lord. At the time, it was hard and difficult, but looking back, we are stronger better parents because of that time together, building our marriage. 8 years of Dan and I. (and our many dogs and pets) And then, it seemed that when the Lord decided to make us parents, He through us in the deep end!!!! It has been awesome...but crazy! In June of 2006 our first child. A baby boy. I remember thinking, "this is probably the only baby we will get". We were brand new parents...still learning when in Jan of 2007 our baby girl came to us! We were in shock for the first 4 months of her life I think! We just could not believe how great the Lord had blessed us! It was a rocky road...hard, and long, but at the end of each day we had TWO babies after waiting so long!!!! Then in November of 2008 (only 8 months after the adoptions on B and H were finalized) God let me get pregnant with our little Sprout! WHAT? It was awesome and scary and unbelieveable! We only had a couple short months with this third sweet child of ours, but they were great! Can't wait to meet my baby one day. THEN, in 2009, for Christmas, God sent us our little Ruthie! We were not expecting another huge blessing, but it right there for us! If you have noticed the years? Four babies, in four years!

Ben-2006

Hannah-2007

Sprout-2008

and Ruthie-2009.

(this makes me a bit nervous about finishing out 2010...I have a pretty full plate ;)

What a whirl wind. We went so many years with no babies and then WHAM! The deep end! I love it. I love how God has worked and I love how He has been the one building our family! I am wondering just how we will handle it when things settle down. Not sure we will know how to handle "normal" ;) 4 in 4 CRAZY!

Feeling like a Square Peg in a Round Hole

Dear Diaper Basket

Dear Diaper Basket,

We have been good friends for a long time. A LONG LONG LONG TIME!!! We had that short little 6 months where we had a break from each other...but now, you are ON YOUR WAY OUT!

Don't get me wrong, I have LOVED what you mean! You mean there is a little baby rolling, crawling, or toddling around my house. And that is pretty awesome! You have been emptied and filled back up more than I can count!! 4 years you and I have been working together to keep these little people clean and dry and fresh. But I am glad to say, you are about to lose your job! Our little last person, is using the BIG POTTY, and doing awesome! And that means, only diapers when she sleeps. Although, soon it will only be at night, because her diaper has been clean and dry after nap for almost a week now. I am surprised at this! I did not think this little blondy blue eyed girl would train so fast. She is not two until September, but she is proving me wrong! She seems to have this thing down and seems HAPPY to no longer need your assistance. I am proud of her!

And so old friend, for now I will start to move you slowly into the closet where you will live on the top shelf. I am excited to have it a bit easier in everyday life and A LOT easier on my wallet. And I will pray that maybe...maybe....maybe...I will have to take you down for just ONE more little miracle that may come our way. If not, that is okay too. We have had a good run! A good LONG CRAZY run!!!!

Ben's "Gotcha" day! 2010

IT'S BEN DAY!!!!!!! Today is Ben's "gotcha" day! The day we brought our boy home!!!!

We always celebrate the kids "gotcha" days by a meal out and a toy!

Since tonight is Church, we celebrated last night.

Ben was so excited about Ben day! He kept saying "MOM! Happy Ben DAY!" It was awesome. While the girls were taking their nap,

Ben and I shared some time, talking about when we brought him home.

He asked me "mom, where did you go get me from?" I answered "we went up the mountain and got you!" Ben- "when I was a baby, and God said I was your little boy?" Me " yep! and daddy and I were so so so excited to go get you!" The proud smile on his face was priceless! I will cherish that conversation with my boy!

We had received a gift card (foster parent appreciation gift) to Chili's, and thought what better way than to celebrate the day we got our first child!

The whole night he was proud, happy, and felt special!

With his Fries and Mac and Cheese!!!

And we can't forget the BLUE ICEE!!!!

His little sisters (or as Ben has started calling them "my girls") had a good time too!

For his toy choice our boy chose this air plane! He was so excited!!!

(that is chocolate ice cream on his face!!!)

We sure love you Ben! Happy Ben DAY!!!!!

Questions, Questions,Questions

I am a mother of three awesome kids. 4, 3, and almost 2 years old. Which means that we don't go more than 30 seconds without a question of some sort. Some nights I lay down in bed and my head aches from all the questions.

"Mom, why does daddy have to go to work?" (this one is answered EVERYDAY!), "mom, why you doin dat?", "mom, where is my cup?", "mom can I have some snack", "why do bugs crawl?", "what do bears eat?", "what do giraffes eat?", "why do giraffes eat leaves?" "why Dod give me a belly button?", "mom, why my feet hop yike dis?", "why do cars drive on roads?", "why we take a baf, I not dirty", "mom why we have haiwr?" "why we have ta rub on sun screen?", "why we doe to churwch?", "why does superman never come to our house?".

This is just a taste of what a 15 min time period sounds like in my house. And my youngest barley talks!!!!!!! Dan and I have stopped measuring our road trips in Mile per hour, and now measure it in Questions per mile!

I know that it is a stage and to tell you the truth, even though it drives me nuts sometimes, I love how curious they are and how much they want to learn and soak in! The other day while in the van on the way to gymnastics, my Hannah was shooting off question after question. Mostly about which pedal in the car makes it go and which one makes it stop. She was trying to figure it out and I started thinking. I thought about me, and how I was as a young child of God. Right after I was saved and for years after that, I was FULL of questions and the desire to study and learn learn learn! It was just part of who I was, like it is for my kids right now. And it humbled me. Where have all MY questions gone. I should still be, asking, studying, seeking and finding! I have let the busyness of life, and the stress of this world slow me down in this area of my life. Slow me down to nothing more than a crawl.

I think I can learn a lot from my children, who are constantly asking why and trying to figure things out and learn more! I may have a good foundation, and know quite a bit, but I will NEVER know everything and I am so far from knowing what I should about God, His Love and His Word. He will always have more to teach me. I just need to show up to class more, and ask some questions. "God why should I do this?", "where should I go now?" "what do YOU want me to do for You today"? etc. So I will try to learn this lesson my children have taught me, and get curious, and interested and question, study, seek and find more and more each day!

Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness.