I wish I was HUGE!!!!

I wish I was huge.(well okay, huge-er than I am right now)  I wish I was having to pee all the time. I wish I had heartburn like crazy, and I wish I could not sleep, or find a comfortable position. I wish my ribs were sore. I wish I was nervous and worried, and excited. I wish Dan was a nervous wreck and I wish he was calling every hour to check on me.  I wish our bedroom had a bassinet set up with little blankies and diapers. I wish I could be telling my little boy and little girl that their brother or sister was gonna come real soon!  I wish it was my turn. 

But all my wishing, does not change reality. This Friday was to be my due date for our little sprout. I am so grateful for the peace and grace the Lord has given me to handle losing the baby. It is only through HIM! My life is wonderful. I have a great husband, and two beautiful children and I Love My Life!!! But that does not mean there is not sadness or hurt. And this week, it is hurting more than normal. The moment the doctor told me "your due date is Aug. 7th so start planning" I did exactly that. This is not how I planned spending Aug 7th, but things in this world seldom go as we planned. I was so blessed to be able to carry my baby for 8 1/2 weeks, and I am so happy that my baby is in the presence of the Lord. I am just wishing that I was getting ready to give birth, instead of "getting through the day". 

Remembering our little sprout, and looking forward to meeting him/her some sweet day!