Jealous of My dog!

It is true. Right now I am jealous of my dog. It is just hard to see how easy it is for even my dog to give birth. Right now my Gertie girl is HUGE! Tomorrow is her due date and she is starting to get skittish and show early labor signs. She could have her puppies any time now, in the next couple of days. Her belly is so big, and when I put my hand on her, I can feel the pups kicking and moving! She is starting to "nest" in her little "puppy bed". There is this conflict in me. How can something so natural, be so hard for me to achieve.

I am so very happy with how God has worked in my life. I love my children and am so grateful that I have them! I am grateful for the fact that I was not able conceive and that because of that I got my precious Ben and Hannah.

But with the kids, God did not take away my desire to conceive and give birth. And right now, even though I know it is not anything more than a dog having puppies, watching Gertie, is a little tough.

I am excited about the puppies, and she always has such cute ones. So I will be keeping a close eye on her, stay close to her and being as close to the "birth" experience as I have ever been, and still pray that I will have my turn, one day.

(here she is, tired, huge and uncomfortable)