Am I fit to be a parent?

Today we are getting interviewed by state adoptions. We have done this before...but I am still a bit nervous. You feel like you are under a microscope and it is not an "everyday" thing to get interviewed to see if you are suitable to adopt and parent a child. This is just the first step. They will interview us together, then one at a time then interview our children and inspect the house. It is all necessary! I am not opposed to it. What I AM opposed to is that it does NOT go both ways! I mean REALLY! After say 3, 4, 5, 6, 7!!! children that you abuse and lose, you'd THINK they would make THEM go through this process BEFORE being able to produce, abuse and lose MORE INNOCENT children! (can you tell I am a little "fed up" with the system...sorry)

Anyway, today marks the start of the "adoption" part of this process for us. At least on our end. It will take a lot of time and paper work before the we are in front of a judge and signing the papers, but today we take step ONE!

And so yes, the FRANTIC cleaning and planning when to put the kids down for nap has happened and I "think" I am ready ;) With these visits, I am constantly trying to "make up for lost time". Can't wait for when I can be home with my kids with a schedule and be able to keep up with the house and meals! I miss being home with my kids!

Rambling. Better go finish the kitchen and then I think we are ready to see if we are fit to be parents!